So,here i am sitting by the window, sipping my usual green tea.While it's pouring outside.Absolutely loving the weather.Rain always gives me the sensation of being renewed & i feel the magic of Nature gives me chance to grow.It reminds me that there is still a chance to change it all. Or a chance to keep up with my Happiness,Hopes & aspirations! And today this beautiful weather have given me an inspiration to start writing again.However, i don't really know how to even begin.But i do know what i want to write about.And today as u read its about a TV show called FIR how it all started and how it ended even before i felt it had begun for me.
Nearly,5 months back i got my 1st call.By then i'd also made up my mind if anything interesting comes along i'll simply not deny it,experiment with television has to happen.So,when Mrs.Kholi (The Producer) called me i was quite prepared.While talking to her the thought in my intuitive mind crossed that could she be offering me FIR but within no second it disappeared into a bubble.Next day i found myself sitting in the office,not much to my surprise i was being offered FIR as a new Cop.I shall spare you the long details of it .All i know that even when i had singed a contract i didn't feel like i had. I was numbed with the fact that i had actually singed a TVshow..all sorts of thoughts were coming into my head. Neither i was too over enthusiastic about it nor too blase. I was in an absolute neutral state of mind!I began shooting in march till this june.And for however long it lasted i must admit i enjoyed it immensely.The warm welcome i got from my team was very nice.Even from the people,media it was all good. I was asked so many questions.My FIR team made me feel like at home. Initially it took time for me to get use to tv cameras,its way different from the film shoot you know! But slowly & steady i was getting use to it. My director Shashank Bali was my biggest help on the set.Whatever i did or could do it on that show credit goes to him.Im an absolute director's actor.From day one he had me going.He explained me so many things. Not just work but we connected on different level.And i'm glad he was my director. And of course my writer Amit Aryan without him it wouldn't have been possible.He wrote my dialogues in haryanvi only so that it becomes easy for me. Acting wasn't a problem just getting the Haryanvi accent was the challenge. But my entire team Gopi ji, Sandeep,Deepesh,Nirmal,Sanjay sir encouraged n supported me.All the assistants were so good.The technicians,spot dada always on time,Sweet tai who did my hair,makeup dada made me look good. Every actor on our set was happy n content.There was no place for egos,insecurities and i really like that.It use to be a laught riot on the sets.
I think i had the most amazing time shooting for it.Although there were so many things which did not necessary convinced me but i chose to just flow with it. No wonder we call it a idiot box. Generally talking one should not expect a logic from TV thats what everybody says.Probably, thats a fun of it but i believe why not? Why can't be there any logic what we making n selling to the audience isn't our moral duty to give them something different? I've a feeling soon there will be revolution in tv industry and the culture of Seasons will be the next thing,better story will be made where it'll be a combination of entertainment & education. We'll all as an actors,producers,directors,writers & the audience will have a chance to thrive in our thinking and creativity.
Anyway, i was talking how much fun i had during the show.How much i enjoyed being a Jawalamukhi chautala the whacked out cop.The best part was i got to do lots of action.I love action & i was so dying to do an action packed role.I'd always thought to myself that i would make a really cool ninja fighter haha..And this show gave me the platform to explore that part of me. And oh boy how much i danced too..every second day i was dancing or doing some action and i loved it! Belly dancing to romantic rain dance to taporigiri what not. I got a chance to explore different sides of my personality. I got to do various styles of characters oh and those disguises were hilarious to portray. All an all it was a mad fun. And my journey with the FIR team was absolutely crazy & fun. We did so much masti on the sets,the pranks,teasing each other,music sessions, shared each other food, bonded really well.The entire process taught me well,i learned so much while working on it. I became more confident as an actor. Whoever said it "Ending is just the beginning of something New" said it right. Now that chapter is over for me and i am glad that it is over coz i know there is something much better ahead of me.I didn't even got a chance to say goodbye, in a way it was good as i hate saying goodbye.I've moved on. It was not that hard for me perhaps coz i am use to it, coming from Film background where you work for one unit till you finish the film and then you move on to another. But i would be lying that abrupt ending for me in that show didn't hurt me a bit. It did pinched me i felt extremely bad.I knew it gonna get over someday but i'd not expected it to get over so soon without even a warning.And it did got me thinking, raised so many questions in my head that Why and How? Was i given a fair chance to prove myself? Is 3 months enough to take away 7yrs of glory? Was TRP got affected by the IPL that time? Or i just couldn't deliver upto my potential? I had just started only getting hold of it..people had finally started accepting me as Jwala. But then Boom! that one thought came n stayed that whatever i could've done or the reason was IT WAS JUST NEVER MEANT TO BE! Suddenly, it all became clear and now I am at peace with myself.And my mission in life is not merely to survive,but to thrive & to do so with some Passion,Compassion & with some Style baby!!
I would take this opportunity to thank everyone to all my friends,my producers,Anooj Sir(Sab Tv) to my team mates who called me and encouraged me.My family who are happy for me n still very proud. My fans who love and appreciates me and still write me with such love n affection. The funny and the best was from Satish Kaushik : "You're Fire..you don't need FIR" i think that was so sweet of him to say just to make me feel better hehe.Now that i am no longer a part of the show. So, i bid farewell to FIR. And i wish my entire team of FIR good luck .Hope the show runs smoothly & do wonders.May god bless them all!Now im gonna shut up before i explode your mind with overdose of BLB (Bohot Lamba blog) ;-)Love & Light
Chitrashi Rawat :-)
